::A prayer for the wild at heart, kept in cages::: Today<br><br>

::A prayer for the wild at heart, kept in cages::

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Today

Well well, so today i finally met up with Sam, my old old friend from NYP. We were supposed to meet at 2, however i wanted to hang out with the workshop guys around that time so i pushed forward my appointment with Sam and met him at 11 instead. Unfortunately i guess they weren't that interested, or maybe they each had something on. We hanged out around town, watched "Green Zone" starring Matt Damon. I usually don't like this kinda war movies, but it has a plot and Matt Damon makes a convincing soldier no? Yeah i thought so. It was pretty good, i mean the action sequence and all. Oh and it has some conspiracy going on with the US government. Huh, who knew? It shows the time back in 2003, when Bush was still the president, and how intelligence people fabricated a lie to find a excuse to go into war with Iraq. Chase out Saddam, rule the nation. Makes a lot of sense doesn't it. I bet the truth can't be too far off. I mean IMHO, they call themselves the world's police, trying to safeguard the peace for every country, but in the end what are they fighting for? For their own purpose, gain and at the expense of the civilians? Do you know in war how many countless innocent lives are sacrificed just for political benefits? I'm no expert on war, but it doesn't take a scientist to figure out that all those lives sacrificed will never be worth whatever motive or reason behind it. I'm sorry i feel so strongly about this but war is unjust, unfair and uncalled for. If strikes/protests were not prohibited over here, i would have taken part. No kidding.

Alright, enough angst and anger building up. Anyway later in the evening i picked baby up and we went to Changi village to have some bbq dinner. I've been suggesting to have that, always sms-ing saying that i've got sudden craving for this and that. So finally today, after weeks perhaps months of procrastinating, i ordered some sambal stingray, kangkong and mussels. I'm not joking when i say every dish is good. Yums seriously. I ordered the smallest for every dish so it was just barely over 20 bucks, it was cheap but fulfilling. Up to the point where my stomach was about to explode after finishing everything. I think i might go down there again soon. :oD~~ (smiley's salivating if you don't get it).

I hate my left knee i really do. Seriously. Really hate it. I regret that time playing tennis with Danny, where i had hurt my knee and still played on vigorously. That probably is the reason why it's still giving me problem up until today. Y'know after that incident while i was still in NYP i had to abstain myself from playing tennis. I rested for 3+ months i believe. I was walking around with my knee wrapped up in bandages to restrict my knee's mobility. And, gradually it healed and no longer bothered me. Until recently at this army event at west coast park where we played this laser shooting game. I must have thought that i was Rambo or something cause i took it real seriously and i slipped. That's when it started to hurt. The pain would be on and off, sometimes i'd "twist" when i least expect. Like for eg. i'd be watching tv with my legs resting straight on the table. Then i'd put them down, and for some reason my left knee would "twitch" and hurt like hell. And that would be followed by 1-3 days of agony, with my knee unable to fully stretch straight and somewhere below the knee would hurt as i walk. I was seeing this chinese physician and was given only oral medicine as he mentioned that by massaging it would make it worst. So while still on the medication i'd still hurt it like perhaps once a week, making progress slow. And gradually( 3 weeks back) i was even able to play tennis and have played on 2 occasions, but last week i hurt it again while sitting cross-legged. Can you imagine? How my life sucks? Things you'd have taken for granted, like sitting cross-legged and for that i hurt my knee. Anyway the last episode was taken to new heights meaning the pain was pretty extreme, and enough to send me rushing to the polyclinic, asking for a referral to a specialist( which they did, unfortunately or not they referred me back to Jurong medical center). But my appointment's on 16th April which is more than a month. So i went down to Mount Elizabeth and went to see the orthopaedic specialist and she was like, "Are you sure about this? This is really expensive. I'll only go on if you agree to this". I soon realized that the 15 min consultation cost 100 bucks and the MRI she had arranged for me( tomorrow but i'm going to skip it) will cost 600 bucks. I mean, it's at Paragon no less y'know in the heart of orchard. Even though my dad has already given me money for it, it hurts to think that without subsidy i have to pay so much, when i can use the money on better things. Anyway, the pain factor now is around 3-5% and only as i walk, otherwise it pretty much doesn't bother me. So i've decided to wait for the government-subsidized appointment at JMC.
Yeah, that sums up what's been going on these past few days. Worrying and stressing( no pun) over my knee. And so far the option of surgery has surfaced again, once again putting me in a dilemma. Does it hurt enough for me to want to go for it? Cause i know that as i age, this knee ain't gonna keep up. It's only a matter of time, and truth be told, i freak out at the thought of surgery albeit a simple one. Keyhole surgery they call it. But the thought of needles, knives, blood, pain will be the stuff of my nightmares. Damnit.

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