::A prayer for the wild at heart, kept in cages::: Twilight<BR><BR>

::A prayer for the wild at heart, kept in cages::

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Twilight

Went to watch the movie and it was quite good, you can never go wrong with a vampire theme- immortality, love, lust, forbidden fruit, good vs. evil, romance. All wrapped up in one. I didn't watch the Underworld sequel but i did watch the trailer for the 3rd installment and it looks quite interesting. The vamp movie starring Kate Beckingsale or something.
Bee actually won the coin toss and had a choice between Yes Man and The Day The Earth Stood Still. In the end bee gave in to me just when i was about to pay for the tickets. Sweet surprises.
Okay, my sister has the Twilight book maybe i'll borrow it after she's done.

22 is not a good age. Y'know the thing that childish people play like for eg. if your 19 and you turn the digits around and you become 91 that kinda silly thing you play when you're younger. Well i'm 22 and i'm still 22 no matter how you turn. It's like 11 or 33. So it has to be the perfect age and anyone who makes fun of you won't make sense right? But why do i feel so old? So unaccomplished. To think in around a month's time i'll be turning 23.
What are my aspirations and my goals? Where do i stand financially? And emotionally? Do i have to be financially poor to be emotionally rich because i feel like i'm spending much more than what i ~~earn~~ put in the bank. And what's after ns? Will i ever find the right person to settle down with? To have a future we can both see? I know nobody can answer these question except for me. And if i feel that if i don't sort out these thoughts my life will never begin. I don't wanna sit around waiting for my life to begin. Or pray that somehow everything will be fine eventually. That kinda feeling, that suspense really sucks.

My cousin just went to Japan like last week and he had to come back this afternoon with his dad now in the hospital. He had to come back with his dad cause he had some kind of liver/kidney problem. The mom and the sis are still in Japan and i'm not sure when they're heading back.
The thing is, my mom told me over the phone and was her voice was wobbly. I know that she had been, or was crying over the phone. And when she returned she told me that in person that he's in the hospital. My mind was a blank - voided of emotions. Why? I was the only one who didn't cry at the funeral when my grandmother passed on. Someone asked me why i didn't cry. I suppose it'd be easier if i had pretended to.
I even called and made plans with bee just now to go out cause i had a feeling that my mom will ask me go visit him in hospital. Right now my mom is staying over there to take care of my cousin.
Am i cold hearted? I just can't feel anything in my mind about this. How come?

Live high Live mightly Live righteously
Posted @10:51 PM

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