::A prayer for the wild at heart, kept in cages::: That kinda sucky feeling<BR><BR>

::A prayer for the wild at heart, kept in cages::

Sunday, October 05, 2008

That kinda sucky feeling

I hate staying at home during the weekends. Especially at night and ESPECIALLY on sunday nights. I really hate it. Damnit i really hate feeling this way. It's like the end of the week and tomorrow there's the mthrfckg jurong camp. I feel so trapped, so helpless and sad. And this feeling sucks cause i get so pissed at every little thing and nothing makes it better. In a way i'm angry at my baby for dumping me at home and rotting, wasting away. Heck i'm so ridiculous i blame everything for causing me misery. I'm now in my room with the doors and windows closed cause my mom's watching some noisy taiwanese show(dumb, lame and noisy) and below there's some chinese funeral chanting thing. It's really fckg annoying la.
So i really need to go out on the weekends and avoid staying at home. Seriously can't stand it. It's like the deafening silence. Or boredom. Y'know?
And i know one thing that's gonna make me feel better. A phone call from my baby. Which i hope is coming soon.

I guess last week i had it easy, only went to the mthrfckg jurong camp for a mere 2 1/2 days. Out of the 5 working days. I could really get used to that. I really hate jurong camp.

To be fair to my baby we DID go out on friday. Walking aimlessly more like it, i think someone's pissed at me for not having actual plans. We did catch House Bunny though. Pretty bimbotic and meaningless, but funny. Yeah so after that we just walked around with nothing in mind.
There's another new New Urban Male shop at wheelock. Out of the what? 1000? I always thought of that shop as very male-chauvinistic-y (if there's such a word), and most of the sales people have good bods ~~and i feel inferior standing next to them~~. Ok maybe just little. Fine i'm a liar.
Our convo at wheelock's place went like this:
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Baby: Bee look. Another new NUM shop (busy ogling).
Me: Ya i know it's EVERYWHERE! Bee let's boycott it ok? Don't even look inside.
-silence-
Me: Hey. They have new slippers!
-goes in and after 20 mins proceeds out with purchase of slippers-
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I just find it quite ironic. I don't have a strong will i tell you that.

My sis's flying off to Bintan with her bf. I don't get it. She asked me a million questions about Phuket, Thailand the hotels/places of interest/food but in the end settled for another country to visit altogether. And she went on to tell me how secluded it really is and how cheap it is to get there. And she said the accomodations are expensive though. Feel like going there man. Another holiday perhaps. I hope she remembers my souvenir.

I'm feeling a little less moody. From blogging of all things. Maybe it's got to do with the funeral. It's stopped.

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Posted @8:23 PM

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