| Friday, April 13, 2007 |
| You |
Came back from a movie and dinner, just barely 4 hours and im back home. Had a little arguement, went cold on you as usual. But this time round it felt different, as though a gut instinct told me something bad is going to happen.
We have been through it all, the ups and downs of love. Had our fun times, and faced the downside of this relationship. I have come to love you so much, nothing brings me joy as much as you do. And it scares me when i asked myself, if i had loved you less than before.
In my heart theres no answer to that, i know that every relationship will mature into a bond and you get to love the person within, and get to understand on a deeper level.
I was lying in bed and the thoughts just came flooding in. And i thought of what you told me, that all good things come to an end. In my mind i already saw the end of the road. What do you do you ride inevitably towards the end of a path? Do you cycle back, holding on to the memories of the journey, or do you find another path out?
And i feel so grateful for having found you, for you to even love me in return at all. There is so much i ask from you, your attention, affection, love. . Someone to cuddle at night, and your undivided attention in the day. And i understand there is only that much you can provide, and i must be so naive to expect so much from someone.
How i miss those times when we first get to know each other. How innocent and simple it was. We had nothing for each other but just love, plain and simple love. How we had counted the hours, and see if we got to see each other daily. And fought over if we should count from midnight or 4 in the morning. How you'd told me that i surpassed all of your previous relationships, and how warm my body felt in the night. How i had fetch you from work and we went home by a bus, and held hands under the seats.
How simple it was when all we did was anticipated the next time we get to see each other again, to love with no obligation and with only love on our minds. Baby dear, do you think we have grown apart?
And now school is about to start for the both of us. Will we still have time for each other? Will i still sleep with you arms around me every once in a while? Will you still find comfort in my body warmth? It really scares me just thinking about it.
My baby, sorry that i seem to be picking on every single issue lately, and blowing it out of proportions. Taking away that much precious time we have for each other.
Do you know that the little goodnight message you sent tonight meant so much to me?
And tonight, i bring to bed with me these scary thoughts and a sinking, heavy heart. |
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